"My Heart Beat''

I haven't written poetry in ages,today I felt like writing this

my heart beat

when you chose me

You Hold my heart
steal its ease
hear,now
its soft  flutter
feel now
the  pound it makes against my ribcage
waiting for the first break in

Love!

Love!
are you a rainbow after Katrina
A calming breeze
after the storm

See
see,I'm used to storms
and lightning
and deep thunderous sounds
unclear anticipation
earthquakes
volcanoes
just simply chaotic chaos charismatically taking me in
See,i have never done  whispers,sweet nothings
but i understand loud bangs,loud voices,words that break bones
blushes and blushes of  sorries,eye closing shadows of apologies
gone,gone,no goodbyes


yet you come,calm!
calm!
you come,calm
subtle
sure and steady
shaking the very core of my being
i'm waiting
waiting for the first explosion
the first fight
the first flight
things are never meant to be this good for this long
they don't always remain this good
so I'm counting

One
You make me veggie filled sandwiches
like you want me  to live for eternity
but i have had oil all my life,
aint used to packages filled with eternity
here, now,is my infinity
forever never comes whilst i'm still around
but you give me
reasons

Two try

when

You chose me every time

Three
they say
Three is a crowd but whenever i'm with you
 i feel  im in the presence of God
because you carry yourself like a holy filled temple
Your loving soul sends shivers across my spine
so come be my crowd
cheer me loudly
as i master the art of being loved fearlessly
help me lose years of clingly,jealousy and doubt
Four thou art with me

as you calm my internal storms
and watch your horizon friendly heart,meet me half way

The Vanishings,by Lauri Kubuitsile.Chapters 31 and 32

Chapter 31

Dambuza sat at his desk going over the coroner’s report. When he looked up Neo was standing in the doorway. It had been four days since Gopolong beat her up and Dambuza was surprised she looked worse than she had that first night. Her lip was cut and still swollen, but the eye was what looked the worst. It was purple and green around the edge and her eye was still bloodshot from the blow.

“Neo,” Dambuza said as he got up to give her the good chair and he took the one with three legs. “Did you have a doctor look at that eye?”

“Yes, it’s okay, it just needs to visit every rainbow colour before it decides to heal.”

Dambuza smiled. At least she had her sense of humour back. “So how are you doing?”

“I’m fine actually. I’m back at work today, though I’m still staying by Nana’s.”

“I think it’s better you do for a while.”

“Yeah…well, actually I came to thank you. Delly told me what you did. You didn’t need to, I think he was pretty much done with me, but thanks,” she said.

“I had my own selfish motives for sorting him out. I don’t care for someone like him.” Dambuza stood up and the chair tried to fall over but he grabbed it in time. “Can I get you some coffee?”

“No, I just wanted to thank you. And… there’s something else actually.”

“What?”

Neo got up and closed the office door. “Nana told me that she gave you the papers I had.”

“Papers?” At first, Dambuza didn’t know what she was referring to.

She lowered her voice even further. “The communications about the biological weapons.”

“Yes, yes she did. Do you really think it’s true? Could Hope Institute be a front for something like that?”

“I don’t know what to think. I wanted to find out, I knew that Gopolong was involved in something, and when I found those papers I got scared. But Nana wants to get Gopolong more than ever now. She’s positive he’s the one, that he’s Carl. But I’m worried. I think we all know now he’s a dangerous person.  I told her, but she’s not listening. I’m worried even more now.”

“Worried? Why?”

“Nana wants to take everything to Portia. She thinks Hamilton and Gopolong are working together.” Dambuza remembered the day he saw Gopolong and Hamilton going to lunch, talking as if they were long time friends.

“But why would she think that was a good idea? If Hamilton and Portia are as close as they are, if one is in, they likely both are.”

Neo became more agitated. “I told her this, but she won’t listen. She’s decided Portia can help. She thinks maybe Portia already knows something and has been trying to get information from Gopolong. It’s crazy. I know Gopolong likes spending time with Portia, but I think he was just hoping they’d hook up. Portia is a straight arrow, she’s committed to fighting HIV, she would never allow anyone to destroy her dream... even Hamilton.”

Dambuza couldn’t believe Nana was being so reckless. Maybe she knew something she hadn’t told Neo. “Listen Neo, I’ll speak to her. There’s no need to rush everything. We need to know what’s going on first. This is a complicated thing, a dangerous thing. It looks like powerful people in the States could be involved if those emails are anything to go by. We need a lot more evidence before we make any moves. I’ll speak with her.”

Neo stood to go, at the door she turned to Dambuza and hugged him. “I know she’ll listen to you. She cares quite a lot about you, I hope you know that.” 

After Neo left, he tried Nana’s cell but she didn’t pick up. He had an appointment at the morgue and would try her later.

***

“Manga, I wanted to see the guy who hung himself,” Dambuza said to the massive person that was the Maun coroner.

“Ya, he’s over here. I was just putting him away.” He waddled over to the metal table and zipped open the black bag with his fat sausage fingers. “They messed him up.”

“Messed him up? I thought he hung himself.”

The big man looked down at Dambuza. “Nope. He was hung up on the tree, but he was already dead. They crushed him with something; I think it might have been a car, if he was lucky. But they crushed everything in him. Then they hung him up on that tree like a Christmas decoration.”

Dambuza looked down at the dead man. So he hadn’t hung himself out of guilt, someone wanted him shut up for good. That put a different spin on everything. He looked familiar but Dambuza couldn’t place him right away. He seemed to be a professional thug like his friend Lebo, maybe he did a few jobs in Francistown. But that didn’t seem right. It was something else. Then he remembered- he had offered his car that day in Makalamabedi when they were organising a search party to go out and look for Baleka. He had been there!

What did it all mean? Pops killed Annah and then someone kills him? Why? Dambuza was positive Pops was involved in the disappearances. But there had to be others. Who were they and what did they want with these people? The only one who could tell him was Lebo. He needed to get to Lebo.

“Okay, thanks Manga,” Dambuza said and made to leave. Then he stopped and turned back. “When do you think this guy was killed?”

“This body’s pretty ripe. I’d say at least three days ago, more likely four.”

Dambuza stopped. Three days ago? That meant Pops was not Annah’s killer. Even if Dambuza had collected Pops that night he promised Annah he would, she would still be dead. That meant there was someone out there ready to kill anyone who got in his way and he knew now that they were closing in on him.  Someone like that was very dangerous.

***

Lebo had obviously not been brought up-to-date with the latest information. He was acting a bit too cocky for someone with a target on his back. Dambuza sat across from him. “So how’s lockup, Lebo?”

The young man shrugged his shoulders. “It’s not nothing to me, I been in here before.”

“So that girl, the one you were trying to get, did you hear she’s dead?” Dambuza asked. He watched Lebo’s response. He seemed almost proud; maybe he thought his cohorts had his back.

“Now no witness, no case. Right?” he said.

“Yes, I think you’re right.” Dambuza waited, spinning a pen in a circle on the table. “You might find it a bit lonely outside though.”

“Lonely? Why?”

“Oh? No one told you then?”

“Told me what?”

“Your pal, your buddy Pops, they found him out in the Delta.”

“Found him? What’s that mean? You arrest him or what?”

“No, he was hanging from a tree out there.”

“He killed himself?” Lebo asked not believing it.

“It looked that way,” Dambuza said.

Lebo hit the table with his hand. “No ways! Pops was not like that. You cops musta done it to him. I know how you people operate.” 

“Like I said it looked like he hung himself, but he didn’t. Looks like the same people that killed our witness, must have killed your friend Pops.”

Lebo was slow, but soon he understood what was going on. Dambuza saw the shadow of fear pass through Lebo’s eyes, he pushed it away with false bravado. “And yeah… so, what’s that mean to me?” he asked, though he knew full well what that meant to him.

“Well.” Dambuza stood up. “I guess it doesn’t mean anything to you. But, like I said, without a witness, we don’t have a case against you. So you’re free to go. Let me call an officer to come and take off those cuffs and leg irons so you can be on your way.”

Dambuza waited for Lebo to make all of the connections he needed to.

“No! Let’s wait a minute. I don’t think we need to be in a hurry and all,” Lebo said. “You know maybe I can help you.”

“Help us? We’ve had you here for almost a week and you didn’t seem very keen on helping us. Why would you change your, mind now?”

“Yeah, but things change, eh?”

“Okay, Lebo, what do you have?” Dambuza sat back, crossed his arms, and waited.

“I… you know these people, they’re not joking around. I mean fuck, they killed Pops. They don’t care about nothing. Nobody means nothing to them. You must see what they do.”

“Who are these people, Lebo?”

“I don’t know the guy’s name. Pops organised everything, I was just helping out. But I’d know him if I saw him.”

Dambuza just wanted to confirm Renet was out. “You haven’t seen him in the cell with you?”

“No ways. You think I’d stay in a cell with that guy around. No, listen I can be a witness, when you collect him. Just keep me in here. Come on man, you know I’m dead if I walk out that door.”

“How many people did you collect for this guy?”

Lebo sat back, suddenly confidant. “Don’t I need a lawyer or something to make a deal before I speak?”

Dambuza jumped up and pulled Lebo from his chair banging him against the wall. “You want a fucking lawyer? Is that it? Just forget it then. Forget any deal. I can’t be messing around with you when people are dying out there. I think I’ll just let you out on the street and wait for the fucker to come and kill you. What about that? Now I want information and I want it now. I’m not fucking around. Now are you playing or not?”

Lebo nodded his head since the arm pressed across his neck ruled out speech.

Dambuza threw him back into his chair. “Now, how many people did you get for this man?”

“Six.”

“Were they alive or dead when you handed them over to him?”

“Alive, but the first one was hurt. We weren’t so good at capturing them at first. Maybe he died later. I don’t know.” 

“How much did he pay you?”

“P1000, each of us for each person.”

“What was he doing with these people?”

“I don’t know.”

Dambuza reached across the table and grabbed Lebo’s shirt. “Don’t fuck me around, you piece of shit!”

“I mean it. I don’t know. Pops didn’t know either. No questions. That was part of it. No talking, we just give this guy the person, he gives us the money.”

“Where?”

“We’d meet him different places. Usually out of town. In the bush and stuff.”

“Where was he from? Is he from Maun?”

“Ga ke itse. I thought maybe, but I never seen him anywhere.”

Whoever it was he’d been smart to keep the information away from petty thugs like Lebo. “Okay, you stay locked up until we find the guy. We’ll see what happens after that. Anything you remember you tell me, only me. Don’t be flapping your lips in the cell or you’ll get yourself killed. People can get to others inside and money is a powerful motivator as you know. So keep it shut.”

A uniform took Lebo back to his cell. Dambuza knew all the information he’d got was getting him no closer to the killer. It would help if he could find him and Lebo could ID him, but how to find him? That was his problem.

Chapter 32

Dambuza opened all of the windows and doors of his tiny house. Though the sun had gone down, it was still sweltering. Not a breeze in the air and no hint of the rain that might have cooled things down. He lay back on his sofa, sipping at a beer. His cellphone rang and he could see it was Bontle. They hadn’t spoken since he left her in his house that morning. He didn’t want to speak to her now, but he feared it might be something about the kids, so picked up.

“Dumelani.”

“Hi Dambuza.”

“How are the kids?”

“They’re fine. I….”

“Listen, Bontle. I’m beat. I’m in the middle of a serious case and it is hotter than shit here. I really am not in the mood to get into everything. Not now.”

“Yeah…okay. I just wanted to check you were okay. I… I mean Dambuza I didn’t want things to go like that okay? I don’t know…maybe we can’t do anything else.”

“Bontle, please. When this is over, when I’m ready I’ll call, we can talk then. I promise. I just can’t do this now.”

He hung up. He only had so much energy and right now he needed every bit for this case. Somehow he felt time closing in on him. Were any of the missing people still alive? If they were, where the hell were they? If the guy wasn’t from Maun, they could be anywhere in the country, even over the border in Zimbabwe or Namibia. God knew what kind of suffering they were going through. If it was for muti, the belief was that the more the victim suffered, the more powerful the medicine made from the parts. Ears, fingers, eyeballs and private parts were routinely removed while the person was alive and conscious. Dambuza tried not to think about that.

“Hey!”

Shocked out of his morbid thought, Dambuza sat up and saw Delly at the door. She’d never been to his place before, at least not inside. He wondered if what he revealed to Nana had brought her to his house. He knew he’d breeched their trust, and he felt bad about that, but also in this case he thought it was the right thing to do.

“Come in,” Dambuza said, looking for his T-shirt he’d removed. He moved around trying to move newspapers and beer tins to make space for Delly to sit down. “Can I get you a beer?”

“Sure.” Delly sat down on the only other seat in the house. She had some papers in her hand.

“I guess Nana spoke to you about her Gran,” Dambuza said.

“Yeah, she did, it’s okay, Dambuza. I would have liked to tell her myself, but I guess I’ve just been putting it off. You likely did us both a favour…but that’s not why I’m here. I have these. Nana gave them to me for safe keeping. They seem to implicate Hamilton and Gopolong.”

Dambuza read through the papers. They were more tables of data like the ones Nana had shown him before. There were comments written in the margins initialled GT, Gopolong Tlholego. He couldn’t see any reference to Hamilton. “So how does this implicate Hamilton?”

“She found them in his office.”

“And now? Where is she? I’ve been trying to call her?”

“She told me she was going for a meeting with Portia. She thinks Hamilton and Gopolong are doing this behind Portia’s back.”

“Why would she think that?” Dambuza felt something was missing in the picture. Why couldn’t all three of them be involved? To do something like they were doing could involve many people, it would have to.

“Did you read everything? There is a comment at the end somewhere?” Delly leaned forward and took the papers, paging though until she found what she wanted. “Here, ‘just between you and me is best. GT’. That made Nana think Portia must be out of the loop and therefore the only person who could help.”

Dambuza looked at the last message. Maybe Nana was right. He certainly didn’t know anything about handling such a case. “So when was the meeting?”

“This evening. She stopped by my place and left these, told me to show you, and then she was off.”

Dambuza tried Nana’s cellphone but she didn’t answer. “I wonder why she’s not picking up it’s nearly nine, she must have been done with the meeting by now.”

“Let me call Neo, maybe Nana’s back home and her phone is off. She does that sometimes.” Delly dialled and waited. She spoke to Neo for a few minutes and hung up.

“Neo thinks she might have left for South Africa. Neo moved back home today and Nana told her she’d be leaving for South Africa to look for her grandmother straight away.”

“But would she go without telling you?” Dambuza asked.

“We did talk about it. I gave her some addresses; a few phone numbers in Kimberly. She did say that as soon as Neo was ready to move home, she was going to leave. She felt everything was urgent, so much time had been wasted already. To be honest Dambuza, I didn’t ask much, I was feeling guilty. Yeah, I know Nana, she operates like that. All emotion that girl.”

Still Dambuza thought it was strange for her to just disappear. “Do you have keys for her house?”

“Yeah…sure, you think we should go check?”

Dambuza stood up as an answer. 

***

Inside Nana’s house everything was tidy. Delly looked around and Dambuza waited. Maybe Nana thought it was best she go now, right after spilling everything to Portia, so she wouldn’t be around when the whole thing fell apart.  Hamilton would likely guess she was the one who had found the papers; she had access to his office thanks to their relationship. People didn’t question her going in and out of it.

Delly came out of the bedroom holding a small case of some sort. “It looks like her big suitcase is missing and there’s this.” She handed the case to Dambuza. “It’s her case for her passport. She took it. I think Neo’s right. She’s gone off to Kimberly. She’ll call us once she gets there. Honest, I don’t think there’s anything to worry about.”

“That’s an odd way to leave,” Dambuza said.

“That’s my Nana, never does anything in a conventional manner. Takes after her mother I’ve heard.”

***

Baleka tried to pull herself out of the deep sleep she was in. “Are you awake?” George asked.

“George…can I have some water?”

He picked up the nearby cup and held it to Baleka’s lips. “You’ve been sleeping since they brought you back, that was two days ago. I was so scared.”

Baleka struggled to sit. She looked at her arms. One had a bandage. She removed it and saw they’d taken blood as usual. Before they took her out she’d been very sick, vomiting and with a high fever. Though she’d been sleeping so long and they’d obviously done something to her when they took her out, she felt better.

“I made you something while you were sleeping.”  George handed her a small bird he’d carved out of a tiny piece of wood he’d found in the corner. He rubbed it against the leg of the bed to carve it into the beautiful shape of a flying fish eagle.

Baleka held it in her hand. He’d smoothed all of the rough edges. The eagle looked so free, its wings outstretched, and she thought of how she used to walk in the bush with her goats and watch the pied crows play in the updrafts, sometimes if she was lucky she’d see an eagle too.  They had the freedom of the entire sky, not bound to earth like humans. She held the bird to her heart and began to cry.

George grabbed her in his arms. “Don’t cry. I’m sorry, I thought it would make you happy. I was so scared when you were sleeping. I thought you were going to die and I would be all alone here. I even thought how if you died I would hang myself with a blanket. I couldn’t think of living with you gone. First Phatsimo and then you.”

Baleka pushed him away to arm’s length. “No! No! You must never ever say that. If I die, you must live. You must get out of here and tell everyone what they’ve done to us. Just like I will if I live. We must! We must promise that. You must promise me you will be strong no matter what, George.”

George looked down ashamed. “I’ll try, but I’m not like you Baleka. You’re so strong and brave, I’m not. You’re the one who keeps me alive here.”

Baleka took his face in her hands. She kissed him on the cheek. “No George. You are who keeps me alive. Promise me. Promise me you will survive no matter what.”

“Okay… I promise.”

Baleka held the bird to her lips and ran it slowly over them. The silky surface felt lovely. “Thank you for this, George. It’s beautiful. I cried from happiness.”

“Do you really like it then?” He smiled at her.

“Yes.” She stood up, though weak, she was pleased she was no longer sick. So much of their time in that place was spent in various kinds of sickness. She couldn’t decide if they were feeding them bad food or the water wasn’t good or it was just being in this dark, closed-in place with no fresh air and sunlight. “I’m hungry though, any food?”

George jumped to his feet. “You sit, I’ll get it. They just brought food. I didn’t eat. I hoped you’d wake up and we could eat together.”

George brought the basins of food. He dumped half of his on top of Baleka’s food. She tried to stop him, but he refused.  They started eating. It was a kind of thick beef soup. Baleka stopped eating and raised her head.

“What is it?”

“I thought I heard something,” she said.

They both stopped eating and got quiet. Someone was coming. But why? George said they’d just brought food. They never came quickly after bringing food.

“They’re coming to take one of us. I can hear, they’re two,” George whispered.

Baleka listened, George was right, there were two, but there was something else, like they were dragging something maybe the food cart. Why would two of them come to bring food, especially since they only just brought food?

George grabbed Baleka’s hand and pulled her to the furthest corner of the room. “I don’t want them to take one of us again.”

Baleka let herself be led by him, but knew if they wanted to take her or George they would do it. They tried to fight and never won. They crouched in the darkness. The door opened and it was the same two people. They came into the room their faces covered as usual, but they carried something. They dropped it and turned and went out locking the door behind them.

George and Baleka waited until the steps were no longer audible, had disappeared back to where they’d come, and then approached. As they moved into the light, they could see it was a person. They had captured someone else and brought them to this horrible place.

The Vanishings by Lauri Kubuitsile,Chapter 29 and 30

Chapter 29

Dambuza drove out to Delly’s. He still hadn’t processed what he’d heard in Tito’s office.  What the hell kind of place was Maun? A man is chopping off pieces of bodies at the government morgue and taking them back to his lab to watch bugs eat them? Then when he’s done with the parts, he throws them in the back of his bakkie, drives out to the bush and buries the lot in a big hole. Meanwhile the prestigious new laboratory is fronting as a hero in the fight against HIV/AIDS and may be building biological weapons in the back office.  Doctors are beating the shit out of their mistresses. And then on top of that people are disappearing like ghosts in the night. When Dambuza was transferred from Francistown he thought lazy Maun was going to bore him out of his mind. Was this really happening in Botswana? Quiet, stable Botswana? It seemed impossible.

If this girl, Annah, had been taken or killed, Dambuza couldn’t help but be blamed. She had begged him to put her in the jail; she knew she was in danger. But he’d been confident they would collect both men the same night. And besides he was positive Renet was their guy, the leader of the entire thing, he was sure the whole thing was over it was just a matter of tying up loose ends. When they hadn’t found Pops, he somehow forgot about Annah. He was so caught up in his own drama with Bontle coming that a scared girl had been forgotten, and now she might be dead.

Dambuza parked the Corolla outside Delly’s plot as there were quite a few cars already parked inside. As he walked up to the house, he could see there was some sort of meeting taking place in the office. Delly was sitting at the front but when she saw Dambuza she came out.

“It’s the family and some neighbours. They’re about to go out again to look for her. She just disappeared. The mother says she was behind the house washing clothes. When it got dark she went out back to see if she was finished and she wasn’t there. From the look of the washing, she must have been taken shortly after she started. Dambuza, she’s just a kid. I’ve known her since she was born. She used to come and ride her bike in the driveway when she was small. Have they found the other guy?”

“No.”

“No? But you said they’d get him that night. Why didn’t someone tell the family? They might have been more cautious knowing the man their daughter was accusing of kidnapping and killing five people was out on the loose. Someone fucked up, Dambuza!”

“Yeah, you’re right. It was me. I should have done it. I knew she was scared and she was right to be.” He rubbed his forehead and sighed. “Are there any leads at all?”

“We haven’t found anything. We have a Bushman guide following the trail but it stops at the tarred road and he’s can’t find anything from there.”

Dambuza nodded at the crowd in the office. “What’s their plan?”

“As you can imagine they’re pretty worked up. About half of them are heading out to Makalamabedi, the rest are going to keep searching Maun. They want to find Pops, and I think when they do they won’t be very kind to him.”

Dambuza felt impotent. This didn’t need to happen. He’d been careless and selfish and stupid. She’d been so frightened; she’d begged him to keep her safe. He was failing everyone everywhere he turned.   He heard movement and looked up to see the meeting was disbursing.  He needed to alert the boss about what was going on. Some uniforms needed to get to Makalamabedi because if this mob found Pops, in the excited state they were in, they’d likely kill him.

He called Tito and let him know what was going on, but then Dambuza didn’t know what to do. He needed to find the girl- but how? Then he remembered the traditional doctor in Makalamabedi, Khathurima. Dambuza had no other leads, maybe he could help. He headed for the Corolla.

Delly rushed after him. “Dambuza, I’m sorry, about what I said. How were you to know they’d come after her? You were sure Pops would be caught.”

They both knew her words weren’t honest. He was supposed to do his job, that was it, and he hadn’t. She was trying to make him feel better but they both knew it was futile.

“No, Delly, I messed up. You’re right. It seems to be all I can do lately. I let Gopolong nearly kill Neo, and now this. I can’t get my head straight. For now on I need to focus, focus on my job before anyone else gets hurt.”

***

Like before, Khathurima seemed to be waiting for him. Before Dambuza could explain why he’d come, Khathurima spoke. “She’s dead, but you already know that.”

He was right. As soon as he’d arrived at Delly’s place, Dambuza knew it was too late. He knew the girl was dead. “Where is she?”

“Not far from home. By the water, hidden, in the reeds. You’ll find her. You will.”

Dambuza got up to leave but Khathurima grabbed his arm with his large, strong hand. “Be cautious, ngwanake, you’ve made enemies, bitter enemies. They are not finished harming those you love. They are in danger, the closer you come to the answer, the more danger they will be in.”

“Who? Who is in danger?”

Khathurima shook his head. “I can’t see clearly, but it is someone near to your heart. Be very careful or the person will die.”

***

It was already night by the time Dambuza turned back to Maun, the moon rose massive and orange in front of him. A haunting moon- was it a foreshadow of what was to come? Who could Khathurima be speaking about? Could Bontle and the children be in some sort of danger? And how would solving this case cause harm to them?

He drove quickly toward Maun. If he could do nothing else, he wanted to find Annah’s body for her family. He decided to pass by Delly first. He didn’t relish traipsing around along the river with Kgosi and his archenemy patrolling the shores. Delly would know better where to look and how to do it safely.

He found her sitting at the back of her office at the edge of the parking lot waiting, smoking a cigarette. “I didn’t know you smoked,” Dambuza said pulling up next to her.

She shook her head. She suddenly looked her age sitting so still on the edge of the stoop. “I don’t really, not anymore. It was the only thing I could think of doing.”

Dambuza explained what Khathurima had told him, leaving out the warning. Delly went in the office and came out with two powerful torches and they headed down to the river with Bob trailing behind. The moon was now high in the sky, white and full, casting a silver glow on everything. They started at Delly’s house and headed up river. They walked slowly shining their beams carefully back and forth in the tall reeds. Neither one of them felt like talking, they both seemed to accept the traditional doctor’s words as the truth and knew they were searching for the young woman’s body.

They walked for close to two hours and had found nothing. Twice Dambuza heard the deep rumble of a hippo, but Delly assured him, though it sounded near, it was quite far away. “Do you think we should turn back? Maybe we need to retrace where we’ve been. He said she was near to her home, we’re quite far now,” Dambuza said.

“Not really…wait…what’s that?” Delly focussed her torch beam near the water. There she was. The body was laying half submerged in mud; only her shoulders, arms, and head were out of the water. Dambuza looked at her delicate hand laying in the water, her fist half open, and he was sure he could feel her grabbing his arm and begging to be kept safe.

Dambuza and Delly guarded the body until the uniforms and the forensic staff arrived. They’d not touched anything just watched the young girl in the muddy water, protecting her from any more harm. They sat in silence, only the lapping of the water against the reeds filled the night air.

Once the team arrived they made their way back to Delly’s place. Dambuza slumped into one of the low chairs on the veranda. He told her about Renet trying to put off the conversation he knew they both wanted to have.

Delly handed him a beer and sat down next to him. “It’s not your fault, really, it’s not,” she said. “Some asshole killed her, he’s to blame.”

“I may not have killed her, but I didn’t stop it from happening either. And I had the chance, that’s the thing, I had the chance to save this one. I don’t think I have a chance with the other ones, not anymore.”

“No one’s perfect. You made a mistake. But actually you thought they’d get him, just like we got Lebo. Renet was in jail. You thought she’d be fine.”

“Yeah... well she wasn’t.” Dambuza was tired of talking about this since he and Delly both knew he’d fucked up so anything else she said was just words. “How’s Neo?”

“She’s been staying with Nana. Wants to get back to work tomorrow, but she looks like shit.  The story she’s telling is she fell down. Not very creative but that’s it. No one’s gonna buy it of course.”

Dambuza was always surprised at how Delly’s veranda relaxed him. Hanging out over the ledge, the branches of trees jutting onto the deck, the river a few metres away. He never thought much about the restorative powers of nature, but he had to admit sitting back there was almost always the medicine that he needed, that and ample alcohol. Delly had slipped a bottle of Jack Daniels and a shot glass on the table in front of him and as they spoke he’d forgotten how many shots he drank, though the magic of the liquid was beginning to take its effect.  And the cold, hard truths of life were receding into the background getting fuzzy and warm and far less sharp.

He leaned back in his chair and tried to clear his mind. He didn’t want to think about dead young women or beaten up researchers or pieces of human bodies used for science or wives that were gone forever. Closing his eyes he felt the cool night breeze blow over his body and took in the scent of wild sage and lavender. This crazy mad place had something that he was settling into. “Do you think when my kids come during school holidays you can take us out into the Delta?”

“I’d love to. Despite your city ways, I have a feeling you and the fabulous Okavango Delta are going to become fast friends,” Delly said.

Dambuza opened his eyes and looked at her. “You know, I can’t believe it really, but sometimes I think you know me better than I know me, but we’ve only known each other for a few months. How did that happen?”

“I’ve always thought there are people who just find each other. It’s meant to be. I was meant to find you. Maybe so I could start my new career as a private detective.” Her laugh boomed out over the river. Bob got up from the corner and stood next to Delly, his tail wagging, but when he realised nothing fun was going to happen, he sat down next to her and let his big heavy head fall onto her lap.

“Ko! Ko!”

As soon as he heard the first ‘Ko’, Dambuza knew it was Nana. Did he need more drama in this day? He’d been avoiding her since the incident at the bar. He still hadn’t figured out what it all meant. He didn’t want to feel anything and that wonderful state was hard to maintain whenever Nana was around.

Nana bent down and kissed her mother then sat down on the sofa. She reached forward for the bottle on the table, poured herself a shot, and drank it down in one gulp. “That’ll help.”

She got up and went into the house for a beer and still hadn’t greeted Dambuza. She came back and sat down. “In my world,” she started in the middle, as if the conversation was continuing from the other night in the bar, “a man doesn’t kiss a woman and run.”

Dambuza kept quiet and the air prickled with anticipation, unanswered questions.

“Okay then…” Delly stood up, suddenly very uncomfortable in her own house. “I think I’ll go fetch us a pizza in town.” Neither Dambuza nor Nana acknowledged Delly’s leaving.

“Okay, yeah, you’re right,” Dambuza said. “But please, if you care anything about me at all, don’t force me into discussing this now. I will explain everything, I will I promise. As soon as I figure it all out, I’ll let you know. But another time, any other time- except tonight. I’ve had a crap day of epic proportions preceded by a weekend that might have killed a weaker man, and all I want is to get quietly drunk and speak of nice things. Please, I beg you to have mercy on me just this once.”

Nana sat back on the sofa and sighed, then smiled. “Okay. In fact, Mum called and told me a bit. I will acquiesce to your wish kind sir.”

“Thank you.”

Nana stood up in front of him where he sat on his chair and held out her hands. He took her hands in his and she pulled him to his feet and led him to the sofa where she’d been sitting. She laid him carefully down and then sat at the end. Placing his head in her lap. She slowly rubbed his head, her fingers making circular motions, moving slowly to every patch of his scalp.  The pressure relaxed his entire body and all of his senses were attuned to her expert hands. With every circle of her fingers, he could feel the tension dissipating. Soon all he focussed on was the movement of her hands and the pressure of her fingers. And then she began to speak, softly.

“Once when I was a little girl, my mother told me the most wonderful story. It was about a woman, an old woman who’d lost her son,” Nana began. “He’d been a good son. He worked hard to help his mother when he was young and when he grew up he finished school and got a fine job. His mother worked as a maid for some people, mean people, but the mother stayed so she could pay for her son’s school fees. She stayed to pay his university fees. He promised that once he got a good paying job, he would buy her a house and pay for a maid to take care of her instead. But just after finishing school, he suddenly disappeared. The old woman was frantic with heartache. Time passed and only the franticness wore off, the heartache grew roots and took up everything inside of her. Everyone told the old woman- your son is dead. Your son has run away forever. The old woman didn’t want to believe it. She knew her son was alive somewhere. All she had to do was wait, and so she waited at the house where she worked, with the horrible people, but her son never came. Her will was strong, though. Somewhere inside she knew her son would return.”

“One day she sat on the stoop, for she was old now and could do very little work, but the horrible people made her polish the stoop anyway, but to do this she had to sit down and scoot along, one bit at a time. She looked up. She wasn’t sure why, she just felt the longing to look up, and then she saw him. She saw her son. But he was not in the form of the young man who disappeared so long ago, but it was her son in every other way. The young woman came forward and took the old woman by the hand. She helped her to her feet. They walked hand-in-hand away from that place, the place of sadness and horrible people. The young woman, the old woman’s son in another form, took the old woman to a beautiful house where maids took care of her and soothed all of the sadness and waiting from her aching body and the two; the old woman and her son, the young woman who he arrived in, lived happily ever after.”

Dambuza listened to the song of Nana’s voice and felt the medicine of her fingers and soon he was better. His problems receded and he was only a man lying in a woman’s lap in the breeze of an African night and that was all there was in the world. He recognised the story, of course. He knew it was Delly trying to tell Nana the truth about her father, but not having the courage to tell her everything. It was a beautiful story, a story he hoped would come true.

Chapter 30

Dambuza woke up and looked around. He was in his bedroom. It was dark outside the window, but the sound of the rooster three houses away told him morning was not far away and next to him lying in his arms was Nana. That’s all he knew. How they got there, what happened between that point and now, these things were a mystery to him.

“Good morning,” Nana said.

Dambuza looked under the blankets and they were both wearing their clothes so that told him an important detail. “Did you bring me home?”

“Yes, and I hope you don’t mind me staying over.”

“No, I need to admit I’m a bit foggy on what took place, though. Sorry.”

“Nothing took place. You were very sleepy, I drove you here and then we lay down on the bed and fell asleep. That’s it. Promise.”

Dambuza remembered the story and Nana massaging his head. “Yes, okay, it’s coming back. Thanks for giving me a break last night though I’m not sure I deserved it. I didn’t mean to run out on you at Chuck’s, I didn’t mean to kiss you either. I was working on autopilot I think.”

Nana sat up in bed, a sign that some serious talk was about to happen. Dambuza sat up too. “You promised me an explanation,” Nana said. “Any chance I might get it now?”

“Yes, yes I did. Okay… that night, I didn’t want to start anything because Bontle was coming, my ex-wife. She came on Friday. She’d called, she wanted to see me. She wanted to get back together.”

“Back together? Wasn’t she the one who initiated the divorce?”

“Yes, but that doesn’t really matter. It could have been either one of us, she was just first.”

“So what happened?”

“Yeah, well she came. I was really trying not to feel. Nana, I want to be honest with you, completely. I can’t lie and say I don’t love Bontle, I do, I love her. And I feel sick from missing my kids and I can’t even think about what a divorce is going to do to them. I wanted it all to be fixed. I wanted us to be a family again. When she said she wanted to get back together, I tried not to be happy, tried not to feel excited. I thought I was doing okay. I wasn’t.”

“And then there’s you. We have something. I’m not sure it’s very healthy, healthy for either of us, but then too, I’m not sure I’m built for health, mental or otherwise. I’m just banging along. So now Bontle was here and I’d kissed you and I wanted my family back and I couldn’t stand that Bontle had been with someone else and then there was that Tebogo at the bar. …It’s a mess…I’m a mess. It’s just a huge fucking complicated mess. The first night it was working with Bontle and by morning it was gone. We can’t be together, at least now, maybe never.”

Dambuza stopped. He’d never said that out loud before, that he and Bontle might really and truly be finished. He’d held out that all of this was temporary or not real somehow, that he and Bontle would get back together some way, sometime. But when he said that, when he admitted the possibility that they wouldn’t, it all seemed suddenly real. It could happen. For a moment he couldn’t breathe with the thought of it, he felt sick.

Nana grabbed him in her arms and held him, rocking gently. And then it happened, the thing he never wanted, he heard himself sobbing in her arms. A Motswana man crying in a woman’s arms? But he couldn’t stop himself. Wild messy waves of emotions poured out of his body and he could stop none of it. When the room became silent again, he couldn’t say how much time had passed. He laid back weak from what had happened and then he was embarrassed.

“Nana…I…I’m sorry, I don’t know what happened…”

“No, say nothing. God, Dambuza, you’ve had a horrible time. How long did you think you could hold it in?”

He lay back and she crawled into the crook of his arm. He held her and it felt wonderful. He thought about the night before and the story she’d told him, a story Delly had told her as a young girl. But he knew it wasn’t just a story. He knew Delly had told her a wish. Perhaps he was wrong to reveal what he was about to, but he felt beholden to Nana and he wanted to return a gift to her.

“Your story last night, the one Delly told you…” Dambuza started.

“Yes?” Nana looked up at him.

“It’s not a story,” Dambuza said. He explained what Delly had told him about Nana’s father and her grandmother waiting for her return. “Please don’t blame Delly for not telling you. She was scared.”

Nana listened carefully. “No, I never would. I completely understand what Mum did. But I must go to her. I must go to my grandmother. She’s waiting for me.”

“Yes, yes you should.”

“Yes, quickly. As soon as I’m sure Neo is alright, I’m going. I’ll go with Delly if she’ll agree.” She got out of bed, suddenly very excited. Then she got back in bed and kissed Dambuza. “Thanks. You’ll never know what a wonderful thing you’ve done for me. I know you think you’re a mess, an emotional mess, someone set out to make a wreck of everything he touches, but you’re wrong. You’re a blessing, and, honestly, everyone you touch is made better by you.”

She jumped out of the bed. By the time he got up, she was gone.

***

“Howzit Dambuza?” Blue said when he got to the station. “Hey where’s that woman of yours?”

“Blue, you nearly lost your tongue last time she was here, what do you want her for now?”

“Just wondering. Hey, the boss says you should pass by his office when you arrive.”

Tito was on the phone when Dambuza got to his office. “Ee,” he said. “Okay, I’ve got it. I expected as much.”

He hung up the phone. “Well that was Manga the pathologist. About that dead young woman, Annah Ditiro, she was strangled, dead before they threw her in the river.”

“Has anyone found Pops yet?” Dambuza asked.

“No, and now we have that riled up group looking for him too. It’s making it all more problematic. I really do not know what has happened to this town. And we can’t seem to make any headway in this case. Just more and more problems.”

The phone rang. Tito listened but said little. He hung up and looked at Dambuza for a moment before speaking, his face fallen. “Well... they found Pops.”

“Where? Is he talking?”

“Nope, he’s not talking. They found him out past Khwai. Seems he found a bit of guilt for what he’d done,” Tito said. “They found him dead, hanging from a tree.”

The Vanishings;Chapter 27 and 28 by Lauri Kubuitsile

Chapter 27

It was 6:45 pm and just when Dambuza was wondering if something had gone wrong he looked up and saw Bontle getting off the bus. She was tall and dark and elegant with her hair cut short, nearly to her scalp, her sculptured face undisturbed by the years that had passed and beautiful, still as beautiful as the first day he saw her.  Dambuza watched her while she still hadn’t seen him. She walked with such confidence, something he’d always loved about her. She was secure and settled in herself, she’d passed that confidence on to their daughter too and he was forever thankful for that.  He loved that about her, since he was always lost, or felt he was, he liked being with a woman who always knew where she was. People turned and looked at her as she passed, they couldn’t not.

Then she spotted his car. She stumbled a bit when she saw him. She tentatively waved her hand at him as she turned towards where he was parked. It frightened him, that hesitation, that uncertainty in his wife. Had he done that to her?

She threw her bag in the backseat and climbed into the front. “Dumalani,” she said and leaned forward and kissed him on the cheek.

“Are you hungry?” he asked.

“A bit.”

He didn’t know many restaurants and had enjoyed the food at Audi so decided to take Bontle there. It was only a bit after 7pm when they arrived so the place was fairly empty which was better, Dambuza thought. They needed no distractions; they had too much to discuss.

“So how are the kids?”

“They’re okay. They miss you of course. They’re looking forward to coming to Maun during the holidays.”  Bontle looked down at her drink. “You look good.”

They ate and spoke of everything that was not important. Her work. His work. The kids’ school.  It all felt so awkward as if they hadn’t known every little thing about each other forever. There was a stranger sitting with him Dambuza thought, a familiar stranger, and he suspected Bontle saw him the same way. They had so many things to say small talk seemed an insult to the importance of what lay between them.

He decided it was better he jump in. “What is it, Bontle? Why did you come here?”

She looked up and her eyes were wet with tears. “God, Dambuza I can barely stand it. I get up, I go to work, I feed the kids -and it’s all just nothing. I look ahead and there is all of this empty space. You’re supposed to be there. But you’re not. And now there’s nothing.”

“Then why divorce? Why did you do it? It nearly killed me to sign those papers.”

“Why? Why do you and I do anything? Pride, I wanted to be the winner. I wanted you to know I was the winner. But it was stupid, I don’t want to be the winner, I want to be your wife. That’s all that matters.”

He pushed the plates away and grabbed her face in his hands pulling her closer. They kissed and it felt like home, everything was back in place. He was going to be fine. They were going to be fine. Dambuza couldn’t believe it was all going to work out okay; he would have his wife back, his family back.  For once things were going to turn out right for him.

***

Dambuza lay in bed the next morning listening to Bontle moving around the house. She was likely cleaning, he thought, he knew she hated a dirty house and his was dirty primarily because he’d never cleaned it, not once since moving to Maun, not high on his list of priorities.   He could smell bacon and eggs. His stomach growled in response and he pulled himself out of bed to go and investigate.

He found Bontle bent over the sink washing dishes. He came up behind her and grabbed her around the waist, kissing her neck at the back. She moaned in response leaning into him.  “Last night was fantastic. I don’t remember us ever having such great sex before,” he said.

She turned around in his arms and kissed him on the lips. “Your breakfast is ready, do you want to eat?”

They sat down at the table and ate in companionable silence for some minutes. “What did you mean by that comment?” Bontle asked.

“What comment?” Dambuza asked, taking a bite from his toast while looking across the table at his beautiful wife.  He couldn’t believe how great things were going. Last night reminded him of those heady days when they first got together. Exciting and intoxicating. Just thinking about it made him want to grab his wife and drag her back to the bedroom.

“You don’t remember us having sex like that? What did you mean by that?”

Dambuza could hear a tone in her voice and his mood dampened. The old tone from the old patterns they’d followed like robots. He didn’t want this, he hoped he could dodge it, knock it off its rails.  “Nothing. I just meant it was great.”

Bontle kept quiet but the air between them quivered waiting for the words to be said. Dambuza could just about hear the anticipation of failure; it wasn’t like he wasn’t familiar with the sound of it.

They ate in silence for a few minutes. “No, you meant something. You want to know about him? Don’t you? You think I changed by being with another man. I can tell you about him if that’s what you want.”

Dambuza had done his best to keep the thought of another man being with Bontle out of his mind. He’d been just about successful. He had no right to be angry, he’d been with other people too, so he tried to pretend that it hadn’t happen and now here she was throwing it in his face.

“You seem to want to relieve your conscience despite how it might affect me, so go on. Get on with it.” Dambuza leaned back in his chair, his hands at his sides. “Get it off your fucking chest!”

“So are you trying to say you were not with anyone? I know you were. You always are. Why must I tell you anything?” Bontle shouted.

This was craziness. The same craziness they’d lived with for eighteen years. Dambuza couldn’t even rile up the anger anymore. Here they were back in their normal game and he felt only tired. Overwhelming tiredness. And sad. The night before had been so perfect and he thought they were going back; he thought they were going to start anew. He felt new. And Bontle felt new.  But it only took a few hours for the newness to disappear and then they only had history a huge block of heavy history, historical hurts that someone needed to pay for. Forgiveness was only skin deep, under that was blood and guts and wounds so severe Dambuza realised now they could never heal. Hope and love and caring for each other would never be enough to soothe those hurts. They could forgive only in words and forgetting was never going to happen.

Dambuza stood up. He couldn’t be with her now. He needed air. He went out to the Corolla and drove away. Away from everything. He drove nowhere, just out away from Maun, on the long, straight, flat roads of his country. Past fields of mealies and kilometres of acacia scrub. He passed cows and donkeys at the roadside and herds of goats idling on the road itself. He watched an old lady sleeping at the back of a slow moving donkey cart and a girl, the wind blowing her threadbare purple dress as she raced by on a too-small bicycle. He wanted space and air and time alone. He parked under a wide morula tree, its shade dense and cool in the hot late morning sun. He opened the doors of the car to let the air blow through. He didn’t realise it at first, until his hands were wet, that he was crying. The tears poured out silently. The emotions were too much, they spilled over like an overfilled tea cup. He had tried so hard not to have expectations about Bontle’s visit. He thought he had been cautious, but he hadn’t. He had filled his heart with hope and the night before had confirmed he’d been correct and everything would be alright. And now it wasn’t and he accepted it would never be and he felt like shit.

He headed home as the sun began its descent to the western horizon, hours lost. He opened the door of his tiny house and wasn’t surprised to find Bontle gone.

Chapter 28

“Any luck over the weekend with Pops?” Dambuza asked Blue when he arrived on Monday.

“Nope, not yet. It was hectic this weekend. Bar fights, some domestic calls, we even have a woman up at the hospital morgue, murdered. They’ll get back out looking for Pops today, if the crazies can tone it down a bit.”

“Anything else?” Dambuza asked.

 “The Boss has that Joburg lawyer in his office.”

“Renet’s lawyer?”

“Yep, and he’s angry as heck. Shouting about how he wants his client out of jail. Same old thing.” Blue rolled his eyes and got back to his paperwork.

Dambuza didn’t feel up to Mr Viljoen just yet. He was worried about them not finding Pops. He told himself it would be okay but he was concerned, too concerned . Why was that so upsetting to him? He didn’t have time to dissect it. Besides his head was a mess. After Bontle left, he’d turned off his cellphone and spent the rest of the weekend locked up in his house maintaining a high level of drunkenness with ample amounts of Black Label and Jack Daniels. Monday morning arrived like a sack of rocks thrown against his head. Two shots and a beer for breakfast had dimmed the pain, but the new injection of alcohol had yet to reach all points in his body.

“I’ll be in my office if the Boss needs me.” He thought Tito could handle Renet’s lawyer better than him, especially in the state he was in.

Dambuza closed the door and poured a shot of vodka into his coffee mug from the stash in his desk drawer. He felt like shit. The last meal he had was the one at Audi with Bontle. He supposed that was part of the problem. He didn’t care though. He didn’t care about much of anything right then.

His cellphone rang and Dambuza looked down and saw it was Delly. He thought of ignoring the call. She likely wanted to know how the weekend with Bontle went, and he wasn’t up to talking about it. Still he answered.

“Dambuza, did you fall off the edge of the earth? Damn it, Man- I’ve been calling you since Saturday night.” He could hear urgency in her voice. She was genuinely angry at him.

“Yeah… sorry. What’s up?”

“That girl…she’s missing.”

“Girl?” Dambuza didn’t know what Delly was talking about.

“The girl…. Annah Ditiro. The one that id’ed  Lebo and the guy from Makalamabedi. She disappeared. Her parents realised she was gone Saturday night. They came over and asked me to help them look around, but we found nothing.”

And then he remembered. How had he forgotten? In all of the drama with the bodies and Bontle he had completely forgotten. That was why Pops being free was a problem. That girl, Annah, had been petrified they’d come after her. Dambuza promised her they’d be in jail and she’d be safe. But they weren’t in jail and she wasn’t safe, she was missing. How the hell did he forget about her? In all of his own drama, she fell away to the back of his mind and got lost and now she could be dead because of his fuck-up.

Dambuza’s office door opened and Tito was there, not looking very pleased. “Can I see you in my office?”  Dambuza nodded.

“Listen Delly, I got to go. I’ll come around as soon as I can.” He hung up and looked up at his boss.

“What was that about?” Tito asked.

“Doesn’t sound good but let’s take one problem at a time,” Dambuza said. “What’s Viljeon on about?”

“You’re not even going to believe it.” Tito walked out without explaining and Dambuza followed him. In the office, Viljoen sat with a very worried looking man. He wore a white lab coat stencilled “Botswana Government Property”, so Dambuza assumed he must be a civil servant.

“Dambuza, you know Mr Viljoen and this is Mr Oagile,” Tito said. “This is Detective Dambuza Chakalisa, he’s working on this case. Perhaps Mr Viljoen, you might catch Dambuza up to speed.”

Mr Viljoen turned to Dambuza as if speaking to him was an unsightly task he was compelled to do. “As you know, Detective, you are illegally holding my client in your cell.”

“Are you aware we now know that he was burying seven bodies out in the bush? That is seven counts of murder. Illegally holding your client is the least of your problems,” Dambuza said.

Mr Viljoen looked to Tito for help. “Dambuza, let him finish. You’re going to want to hear this,” Tito said.

“See Detective, you jump to conclusions, that’s your biggest problem.  Were there seven bodies out in the bush? No, that is not what the evidence has shown you, but yet you jump to a conclusion in a very unprofessional manner. I wonder how you people solve any crimes up here doing such shoddy police work, I really do,” Viljoen said, shaking his head.

Dambuza looked at Tito for permission to sort this man out. Tito put up his hand to slow him down. “Mr Viljoen, please, just explain your case. We’re not interested in any opinions you might hold regarding how we do up jobs here in Maun,” Tito said trying to calm things down.

“Yes, well, I was just trying to make a point. They are not bodies, they are parts of bodies. My client was burying parts of bodies.” Viloen sat back as if he’d won some sort of point.

“And? How does that make him less guilty? Those parts were originally attached to complete human beings. You can’t take them without killing the person. It just shows me he is a sick bastard,” Dambuza said. “I’m not sure what it shows you.”

“I think if you could muster up some semblance of composure and patience, and listen to Mr Oagile you might change your opinion of Dr Renet.” Viljoen turned to the man sitting next to the lawyer who had managed to shrink down into his lab coat hoping perhaps they would forget he was there.  No such luck.  “Mr Oagile, tell the detective what your relationship with Dr Renet is.”

Oagile looked at Tito with a questioning face. “Our deal stands Rre Oagile, you can speak freely to Detective Chakalisa,” Tito assured him.

“Okay…well…I met this man, this Dr Renet, at the hospital. He had a woman friend sick there, he was visiting. I work there….in the morgue. We talked and then he asked me if I ever get bodies that no one collects. I told him we do, especially illegal Zimbabweans. They sit in the morgue for weeks, sometimes even months, waiting for someone to claim them. If no one comes, then the government eventually buries them. It takes some time, you know, just in case relatives show up. So he wants to know if anyone checks the bodies. I tell him we’re the ones who put these people in the coffins and then they’re just buried, no body viewing since there aren’t any relatives.”

Dambuza looked at Tito. What was this all about?

“So,” Oagile continued, “he wants to pay me to give him some parts. Not like private parts or anything, it’s not for muti. That I can’t do. Me, I’m a Christian. I don’t care how much he would pay me; I wasn’t going to do something like that. I don’t believe in all of that. He wanted it for science work, research he said. Just a leg or arm, things like that. I didn’t see the harm. They were just going to be buried anyway.”

“So you cut off parts of these unclaimed bodies and gave them to Dr Renet?” Dambuza asked.

“Yes,” Oagile said.

“What was Renet doing with these body parts?” Dambuza asked.

“I don’t know exactly,” Oagile said. “I just know he took them.”

“Did he pay you?” Dambuza asked.

“I… I was taking a risk. I coulda been fired. I … yes, a small amount,” Oagile said.

Dambuza turned to Viljoen. “So what was he doing with the body parts?”

“As you know Dr Renet is a well respected entomologist. In France, he was attempting to refine his forensic entomology skills. This is a field of entomology where insects, especially insects that feed on dead decomposing bodies, are studied to learn more about the body they feed on. It is a fascinating field of science. In more developed countries they use forensic entomologists to solve murder cases and other suspicious deaths. Dr Renet found it difficult to get the bodies he needed to perfect his skills while living in France. They have many stringent laws regarding such things. This was the main reason for moving to Botswana. He hoped he would have better access to dead bodies to continue his research.”

“So he thought it was a good idea to get body parts like this?” Dambuza couldn’t believe what he was hearing. “Black African bodies are fine to tear apart and use as you like but white French bodies are not?”

“I’ll admit his thinking was faulty, but still these were unclaimed bodies. No one was coming for them. And scientists are like that, the ends justify the means for them. They are desperate for knowledge and have a sort of tunnel vision.”

“Why didn’t he try a legal route to get permission to do such a thing?” Dambuza asked.

“He had no time. He only intended to stay in the country for four years and he had many things to investigate.” Viljoen spoke as if what he was saying was perfectly sound and logical. Dambuza felt like he’d walked through the looking glass and was in an alternate universe. What were these people thinking? Had they no shame, no compassion?

“Still, Tito, even if Renet didn’t kill these people, he committed a crime. Desecration of a corpse, corrupting a civil servant. He still has cases to answer for,” Dambuza said.

“Yes, of course, he has charges to answer. He won’t be released today. But he’s not our man for the missing persons’ cases, nor has he murdered anyone,” Tito said.

Dambuza could hardly hide his anger over the look of victory on Viljoen’s face. He needed to get out of the office. He looked at his watch; it was almost an hour ago that Delly called. He needed to get out there; he needed to find that girl.

“Boss, I have another case…the call from Delly…” Dambuza didn’t want to reveal too much in front of Viljoen and Oagile.

“Yes, go, I’ll sort this out. Let me know what’s happened.”