I love my boy- friends.............................and my girlfriends too

Yah,i said boyfriends--not boyfriend cause i  am not talking about the romantic kind of love for my boys--but rather the friendship kind---and they are about 6-8.I don't really count them so i am not exactly sure how many of them i have.The thing is my tsa kalahi crew is one big group of all Batswana students in one  study group right,so we hang out  together everyday on weekend days  plus  Sundays .Now you would think i love this guys because they are nice or something like that,but its far from the truth--these guys are mean--like capital M.E.A.N--Just kidding---they are very nice guys even though they  have made me cry--have annoyed me---have upset me but at the end of the day they are now more of family than just friends and i know they are my good friends.They push me to my limits eg they are very much aware of my shyness and during clinics when we are supposed to examine patients they will tell me that if the day passes by without me examining a patient im getting punishment --sometimes they threaten me with buying them lunch or examining more patients after school hours so in a way i end up loosing my shy cocoon.Today i got the threat and knowing me and my not wanting to part with my money --i was examining patients like tomorrow was my final year osce exam.One thing for sure is  after 4 years of attending the same classes and meeting every saturday with these guys ,eating lunch with them and all the like--when we finally take different paths next year June ,Im gonna miss them,esp Mr B--who never tires of escorting me from Mt Hope to Champfleurs no matter what time of the day or night.Thanks my friend. Mma Sp--the insanity gal-Didi--what would i do without you my tech man ,by the way my computer is acting up--so when can i come over so you help ,Dims---my 2nd father lol--and yes im younger than your first born  neh ---Chief--wena! i still have beef against you and no you are not my closet friend ,ke go ngaletse--ga ke go buise and when you see me don't even say hi tommorrow --Ms Lala-the one who understands my love for poetry and the rest of the things you all dont get --Vero--my level headed friend--Skebaba-the only one who never argues with me--breath of fresh air  i tell you--why cant you all be like Skebaba--Mr G--i behave when he is around,mogolo :)  Phatsi-ohh your kindness gal--the tea and the chocolate you can never be on my wrong side since that girl,and o gaisitse Ms Lala--cause the way to my heart is through my stomach  -Cathy-the prayer warrior ---Rodgie---eyi---i have been writing out blue prints since six because of you man ahhh...thats what one gets from having nerdy friends like you,Chris---wena you are always  right .no argument.....Lol...anyway let me hit them books before im scolded by the famous Tsa Kalahi Crew ---but before i do--Im grateful i met all of you guys--if i go to the other side  before you do --remember that all  your friendships meant the world to me and im glad fate let our paths cross.Cant wait for the next time i frighten you all by crying at our next study group meeting after an argument---its so nice to see you all shaken when im upset lol...

we are the future leaders of tomorrow and today

its dawning---I am an adult.Its no longer about who can do what but what i can do .I just read an article about soap that can prevent malaria and it hit me that we are the young minds that are supposed to be coming up with this inventions to curb the problems of our people.No one is going to come and change things for us.

Fighting for my distinction lol--took the fight to facebook

i took my MBBS distinction fight to facebook man ..this final exam thing is real--just 11months away ...my cover page and profile pic are medical conditions pictures man --i am waging a warfare for my degree man..no one takes pity when one fails so i'm really trying my best ---i have even started a blog on mnemnoics and memory aids just cause i tend to lose notes when i write on lose pieces of paper :) anyway i just put my what to od before 25 list to remind me of the thing i need to do before 25 again ..ohh that 5 dollars i won yesterday came in handy this morning 

DAY  1 Donate clothes You no longer use	DAY 2 Give away some  books you don’t use	DAY 3 Volunteer at a shelter	DAY 4 Write prisoners letters-I feel guilty about a letter from a prisoner who once wrote me and I never replied	DAY  5 Walk from Champ Fleurs to Trincity and back
DAY 6 Go  fishing	DAY 7 Go ice skating	DAY 8 Learn sign language	DAY 9 Learn to say “hello” in 50 languages.	DAY10 Learn how toBelly Dance
DAY11 Pay for someone’s lunch	DAY12 Finish the  fiction in my online library	DAY 13 Start  a happiness project	DAY 14 Make a difference in at least one person’s life.	DAY15 Write and publish a novel
DAY 16 Audition for makeup modelling	DAY 17 Gain a Readership of over 10000people by December 2013 for The SEED magazine	DAY 18 Uplift someone’s spirit	DAY 19 Graduate with distinction Jtough one	DAY 20 Get my blog to 10000views by Novemeber 3 2013
DAY 21 Create enough passive income so that you don’t have to work another day in your life.	DAY 22 Live on 25tt a day for  25days	DAY 23  Get an ideal 4bedroomed home	DAY 24 Visit a mosque	DAY25 Run a Marathon
Day 26 Learn how to apply eye liner, and eye shadow	Day 27 Try a new hair style You have never done before	Day 28 Rehearse and recite poetry in  front of an audience	Day 29 Buy myself red roses and share them till I remain with one	Day 30 Watch the top 20 movies of all time

fun time: school time

so in preparation for our MBBS exam we talked to a few seniors who just graduated and we had a really eye opening talk---i realised that getting very decent marks isnt a joke..u have to put in work but it can be fun---today i implemented one of the things i was taught---i asked my friends to give me answers to questions and if they answered right i give them 10tt dollars but if they answer wrong they give me 5tt dollars and one of my friends was bait--- i got my 5tt dollars--tomorrow i have taxi fair  :) i really had a good day in school ..i just wish i had learnt of this earlier--- right now i'm going to learn about labour and hope i can find bait for my next 5 dollars --i will learn it soo well ..planning on reading the chapter atleast 5 times :)

Dad

Dear Dad
Permit me to use the name my grandma uses when she calls you fondly --despite the fact that we are three decades--two continents apart right now.Tonight let me do what i was not brought up  to do.Talk about my feelings.Tonight  i confess the love i have for you-how much you mean to me.We say it always when we are together--not through words but through our actions--you do what you can to protect your children -you do what yo can so we could have the best of what we can have and for me thats how i feel your love even though i have never heard you say you love us i still  know your love follows us wherever we go.Tonight ,I am my father's daughter and you are my dad and I embrace every piece of  you,you  have ever sacrificed-you independence--your freedom to bring us up.I appreciate your unconditional sacrifice and love  and i say thank you Dad.It means the World to me.You may be one person to the world--but to me you are the world and i am what i am because of you .

Lots and lots of love

Jafu's daughter :)

On a hunt for the great poems that influenced me since childhood

It seems like this week i'm hunting for my old favorites-perhaps its because i haven't had time to write my own -a few days ago i stumbled upon the Don't quit poem---today i remembered this-- Anyway poem by Mother Teresa.

I used to read and re-read it back in the day when i was a teen  when i  got into an altercation with my play mates,cousins  and my feelings got hurt ---it made me instantly better and i would  try to make peace after .I still find that it helps me a lot cause i don't get annoyed easily by little things ---maybe i recognize how flawed i am and i am considerate of other people's flaws as well.anyway here it goes 

THE ANYWAY POEM 

People are often unreasonable, illogical and self centered;

Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;

Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;

Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;

Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;

Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;

Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;

Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;

Give the world the best you've got anyway.

You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and your God;

It was never between you and them anyway.

BY MOTHER TERESA

Rest, if you must – but don’t you quit.

Cant wait for friday after my last ENT AND OPTHAL exam :) .Right now im just absorbing the knowledge and holding on cause of this poem whose author i unfortunately do not know :)

Don’t Quit!

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,

When the road you’re trudging seems all up hill,

When the funds are low and the debts are high,

And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,

When care is pressing you down a bit,

Rest, if you must – but don’t you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,

As every one of us sometimes learns,

And many a failure turns about,

When he might have won had he stuck it out;

Don’t give up, though the pace seems slow,

You might succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than

It seems to a faint and faltering man,

Often the struggler has given up,

When he might have captured the victor’s cup.

And he learned too late, when the night slipped down,

How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out –

The silver tint of the clouds of doubt –

And you never can tell how close you are,

It may be near when it seems so far;

So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit -

It’s when things seem worst that you mustn’t quit.

Author Anonymous

Care about your patients

yesterday i had a convo with my friends Dk and Sthaa about what distinguishes a good doctor from any other doctor--and they said something that has since stuck to me.''Care about your patients.''

When i am ill,i go to great lengths about finding out whats wrong with me,i learn about every side effect of the meds i get,i lean how the illness affects me--its not only the body malfunctions im concerned about--its everything--my social interactions--how i am affected emotionally--mentally--and physically--its not about passing an exam ----so im going to treat every case from now on as if i had the disease.


I just stumbled on a blog of one of my proffessors in medical school and i am completely awed at what he has accomplished.if you want you can check this link and see what i am talking about
http://www.vijaynaraynsingh.com/?page_id=91

I want to be something close to what he is --so help me God...
God give me the ability to learn this diseases and retain them--make me extra extra smart Please Please!
I really want to be a great excellent Doctor--Use me :)

Make me a Ben Carson---A Proff Naraynsingh--A Seemungal--And Teelucksigh combined and all my proffessor in medical school combined :)

MINI BREAK

I decided to take a mini break from  facebook..i have been aithfully facebooking since 2009  so i want to see how my life changes without the online  influence...Today i had a great day...did a bit of work and it was a special day cause one of my frends was turning--i didn't get to see him though.I hope he had a good birthday.there aint much to write about today :) so im just gonna say bye -- you will hear from me  when there is new news

:) My patients and I

God has been so good to me---some mornings when i don't feel like going to school and i end up forcing myself to go,i meet the most loveliest patients who remind me why i decided to settle for medicine in the first place.Today was one o those days--with one of my patients telling me i have a beautiul aura about me and i will touch many lives not for money but for the genuine need to want to help. --(apparently she saw a green light about me and a rose )..it was  uplifting--i guess this is my calling---to touch someone's lie  out there and devote my life to a worthy cause :) She made my day

And my skim--Tsa kalahi Crew  made my day --i don't know what i would do if i wasn't in the same class with this 14 or so Batswana students---you would think we were back in Botswana with Trini foreigners in our class instead of the other way round :) .I'm sure gonna miss them when we part next year


Right now i miss all my favorite people and i'm praying for some sort of miracle so i could see all of them soon...wish i had the power to control things so i could have things turn out the way i want--oh well i guess i have to do with what i got hey--and just continue praying for a miracle--one thing i know is my prayers do work :)  especially when i listen to this song.Its one of my favorite morning riser songs
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LQmlSqRX5fg

anyway night night..i have a test coming up soon--and have a whole two set of books to read --so i cant write a full page hey


ohh i almost forgot--i bought myself We Need New Names--by Noviolet Bulawayo---been waiting for the book since last year ..hope to read it soon

Go thapa ka saka ya dinamuni--scrubbing with an orange sack

Just finished showering and somehow i didn't feel like I showered away the dirt  to my heart's content---I was using this modern day sponge stuff that comes with a shower gel and the like--and the little soft rock that is used  to scrub manga--free---feet---i have no idea why they invented it---nna my grandma would throw away that useless rock---we need a rock that will scrub the callous away---leave it so white and free of that old 50thebe coin crack that could store some dirt and hide a fifty pula note if you are really determined too--

I am still trying to figure out the use of the manga free rock--except that in my case it is a sentimental rock----its special you see,that's why i don't throw it away-----i got it as a surprise gift on one of my very first  visits  to snowy places  :) so it sits there like the Queen of rocks --on my dressing table and on days when i don't feel on top of the world---i see it and smile---because i'm reminded that someone does think about me ---anyway kana my intention is not to blog about matters of the heart----i was telling you about my not so clean feeling after showering--you see back in my day i didn't use this sponge stuff--that was for my working mother---we kids were content with the orange sack holder---it came in two colors --orange and green---and sometimes the sacs twisted to make a green and orange one long sac that could reach the meeting of one's waist with one's God given bum-

the long sac came in handy when you didn't have anyone to scrub your back.Especially if you had no one to shower with.I learnt of this use when i was i think 9 and my shower time with my much beloved bro was cut abruptly short.I was growing older you see--and when kids are of the opposite sex  one time they stop bathing together.I still cherish my bathing  moments with my bro though-they were always dramatic---if it was an afternoon bathe--he would run away at the moment he heard his name called  for him to come bathe --and my fatty boom boom  self at the time  would have to run after him --(mind you,he was a light weight  sprinter  who could hide in places we didn't even know existed)  ---and bring him to our then Aunty--who would make sure he was in the bath tub.

When we were unsupervised,our shower hour would last for hours until someone had to use the bathroom.Sometimes we accidentally tipped the foam bath container into full brim bath tub so we could play with the little bubbles and if we could not fake an accident we poured ourselves some and replaced it with water.This trick of diluting things  came in handy when the foam bath was still a bit full---once it had been used and diluted several times our mom would know that something fishy had happened--the foam bath would be so dilute you would just know someone had put water into it. Our mom ended up storing the foam bath in her bedroom  and denying us the childhood ability to explore science  on our own.Seriously --we learnt about the concept of concentration in our bathtub.

Anyway --i used to envy my mom so much for having privileges to have things like foam bath --and now i cant wait to have my own bambinos so i can deny them some of those privileges hehehe..and yah i do miss my bro---he is a grown up man now---but still my closest sibling --probably because i spent so much time with him than the other three bambinos-- :)  cant wait to go home and scrub myself with the orange sac --if you have never used one before --do not try it ---its for us--the hard core skinned village girls :)

I am weeping for you

There is a sadness echoing in the walls of my heart -tearing me apart--leaving a lump in my throat--My Africa  ---I weep for you----My people--My bloodline.I weep for the faces of hunger ---The hands that have learnt  how  to survive through crime-not because they want to--but because they have to..For the 1 in 4 statistics--the death tolls--the grave yards that are dug daily --the bodies we have to bury--the ones we have  no time to bury--The demarcation of  Sub-Saharan  Africa--the land of the dying---the parched ground that thirsts for  bodies --the unrequited  years of suffering--I am weeping for the HIV  labels we carry on our foreheads  wherever we go---The looks we capture  by virtue of  being born in our geographical locations--I am weeping for the migrating brothers and sisters  leaving behind their roots in search for better lives for themselves and their bloodlines-- carrying  heavy suitcases of identity crises--i am weeping for those who stay to put up a fight---of not knowing beyond reasonable doubt if staying changes things more than leaving or leaving changes things more than staying--- I am weeping for you. South Africa--Zimbabwe--Botswana--Lesotho--Swaziland--Namibia--Zambia---Malawi--Mozambique--Angola--I am weeping  for

an old poem for the rare breed of gentle-men

FOR THE REAL MEN 

THIS IS FOR

THE MEN..WHO

HOLD OUR HANDS AND

DRY OUR TEARS WHEN THEY ARE

NOT THE SOURCE OF OUR PAIN

THIS IS FOR THE MEN WHO TAKE US ON A PATH OF RESTORATION AND HEALING

 DRESSING WOUNDS THEY HAD NO PART IN CREATING

THIS IS FOR THE MEN WHO CHOSE TO STAY WITH US WHEN WE HOLD UNJUST PREJUDICES AGAINST THEIR GENDER

WHEN WE HARM THEM BECAUSE OF PAST HURTS

WHEN WE CONTINOUSLY TALK THEM DOWN

WHO CHOSE TO NURTURE US AND NOT GIVE UP

ITS FOR THE MEN WHO HELP US SEE THE WORLD THROUGH UNTAINTED GLASSES

WHO CHOSE TO BREAK THEIR BACKS FOR US

TO PROVE EVEN WHEN THEY ARE NOT FORCED TO PROVE THAT

REAL MEN STILL EXIST

THIS IS FOR THE MENWHO COVER US UPAND TAKE AWAY OUR SHAME

WHO TELL US WE ARE BEAUTIFUL WHEN WE FEEL SO RUN DOWN AND DIRTY

WHO LOVE US IRREGARDLESS OF OUR CIRCUMSTANCES

WHO PROTECT THE WOMEN IN THEIR LIVES..THIS IS FOR THE MEN

THE REAL MEN..WHO LOVE THEIR WOMEN IN A GODLY WAY

WE APPLAUD YOU FOR THE DIFFERENCE YOU MAKE IN OUR LIVES

THE RESTORATION YOU BRING

THE DOUBTS YOU ERASE

THE TRUST YOU REBUILD

THE JOY YOU BRING

THE LOVE

THE LOVE YOU GIVE UNCONDITIONALLY

DEDICATED TO  MEN WHO LOVE UNCONDITIONALLY

INSPIRED BY A MAN WHO CHOSE TO LOVE

We have a new addition to our family :) well maybe two

So my housemate's birthday was today---and we celebrated it in a small way---kinda got to bond --she is a great housemate and i'm glad i live with her-funny thing though is the first time i first saw her i didnt  think she was a friendly person--she isnt as extroverted as most of my friends are--more like shy and an introvert at first sight---but getting to live with her has shown me the girl can talk--when she puts her mind to it.-she puts up with many of my flaws very gracefully--like the lady she is :) so im just gonna wish her a happy birthday again here..yesterday she brought home two amazing little pets---two fish---i have since named them Peaches and Pumpkin---don't tell my house-mate alright--these are just my secret names .I was soo excited--I felt as if we got a new dog or something--except we dont have to to walk the fish---or train them where to pooh.

She put them in these clear fish bowls and decided to separate them---I was soo sad...I don't like it when living things are separated--i think the fish will get lonely..i mean i cant imagine spending the rest of my life alone---no company...no one to say hey did you see that--i mean fish must have some sort of language they speak...now that one is on our dining table and the other on the TV stand i bet they cant gossip---i planning to ask her to please consider giving them visitation rights..atleast once a week...What if they are a couple...or friends..or siblings..and all they can do is keep on swimming round and round with no hope of ever meeting ever again..Its kinda worse than jail..atleast when you in jail you know if you will one day get out lol..anyway she did say that she knows some fish are not supposed to be in one container cause they could eat each other--so i guess she is doing this for Peaches and Pumkin after all...anyway bye guys..i have to check on my new siblings :)