Morning blues: growing up: i need a doctor

I woke up on the wrong side of the bed,a little grumpy and unwilling to go to work.But then I decided to just drag my self and go do what I said I am committed to do.I put on my favorite jacket.I'm sure if you look at my profile pics you know which one it is,the yellow one,with the african feel to it,it has a geometric  black pattern,I added a white top and blue skirt,and yes my new brown mokwanyakwakwanyas and wala I had the perfect outfit to uplift my mood (ps let me intimate to you that I'm still struggling with heels so I don't use any twelve inch heels or anything like that,just a reasonable 2 or so cm,plus I'm tall and I don't want fellas thinking I'm too tall a girl  : I need a lesson in heels sisters,bokgarebe bo hitile nako e neng kele tom boy back in the day)

I then went to the anaesthetic department.First person I see when I get there is one very nice loving female nurse who showers me with tons and tons of compliments about the way I'm dressed.I like her.not because of the compliments.she is one of those people who is always nice.ga a di mood.

seems like my Lucky jacket is working  I change into hospital scrubs and just as I enter the anaesthetic room I receive two of the warmest hugs from my fellow anaesthetists,apparently they missed my smile.I'm a hug lover.always have been.Its funny how I get compliments of having a beautiful smile when I have a missing tooth and some of my teeth are not well aligned,but hey,I am not complaining,God uses the imperfect things to put to shame what? Scripture is gone  the Beauty of working in a male dominated environment,one gets showered with tremendous brotherly love.

I meet a female nurse in theater 1,she is very enthusiatic: promtly introduces herself and asks me to carry on with giving fluids and resiting a cannula.She talks to her patient explaining what's going on every step of the way.I'm even taught about Bupivicaine and spinal anaesthia.I'm impressed.I'm always impressed when someone does their job very well and goes out of their way to engage the younger ones.I give her 5stars in my head.could have said it out loud,but surgeons are here,attending to the patient,and we all know tranquility is most preferred by my fellow co workers.Glad I made it to work this morning,now chilling and waiting for the next Open reduction and internal fixation procedure.I hope to intubate soon 

im told we gonna have to wait an hr 3omins for a drill.Somehow something is always missing here.yesterday there was no linen.

Anyway i have Anaesthesialove: who said medicine is boring 

Wilson Ngoni ;The artist

My friend Wilson Ngoni has super amazing talent.I just went through most of his artwork on Facebook and i was blown away by his work.He is super talented.But the picture below left me speechless.More of his work can be found on Wilsonngoni art on facebook and on his google page https://plus.google.com/u/0/111268440907155442584/posts. We have exceptional  talent in Botswana!

Collection of my fav love poems

One Hundred Love Sonnets: XVII

I don’t love you as if you were a rose of salt, topaz,   

or arrow of carnations that propagate fire:   

I love you as one loves certain obscure things,   

secretly, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that doesn’t bloom but carries   

the light of those flowers, hidden, within itself,   

and thanks to your love the tight aroma that arose   

from the earth lives dimly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where,   

I love you directly without problems or pride:

I love you like this because I don’t know any other way to love,

except in this form in which I am not nor are you,   

so close that your hand upon my chest is mine,   

so close that your eyes close with my dreams.

I was born with a trembling heart
a set of arms
always opening closets
instead of pulling triggers
see
where i come from
strong arms pull triggers
and those that  don't,
survive by knowing the truth
to escape in time
arms don't hold things
they don't untangle undying  knots
 like the knots in my stomach
that keep filling a bottomless pit
every-time you try to hold me close
see i have never done close before
without closing off
i cant sleep through the sound of your beating heart
when it comes that close
it keeps me awake mining  for truths you are hiding
 in jackets and pockets of last night 's meetings
and overseas travels and working late
cause i don't understand cosiness
that comes at no prize
nothing is free in this world
i understand bruises as blue as the sky
and denial in layers of make up
and i know love hurts
strangers cannot touch your heart
but lovers can rip it out of chest cause they know where exactly you keep them
my grandmother says during their time they were told to not mine for truths
that they were not ready to find
but i would rather unearth bombs before they blow in my face
cause i'm scared of explosions i never see coming

COLLECTION OF BEAUTIFUL WEDDING VOWS

"I promise to encourage your individuality because that is what makes you unique and wonderful,I promise to be patient and to remember that all things between us are rooted in love,I promise to help shoulder our challenges because through them we'll emerge soo much stronger,I promise to share with you the joys of life because with you they will be that much sweeter.I will share in your dreams,and promise to support you as you strive to achieve your goals,I promise to be your partner in all things,not possessing you,but working with you as a part of the whole,I promise to love you loyally and fiercely,for as long as i live,this is my sacred vow to you,my equal in all things'' Paula and Jerome-Tobago Trailer

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