Setting financial goals for the month of December

I want to try this out,to see if in the last lap of the year i can achieve a certain kind of financial freedom,to see if i can achieve certain financial goals this month.

1.Pay for monthly expenses on time:paid for internet,house phone,water and maid; left with buying electricity :) not bad
2.Get medical aid cover this month:to do on monday ,Funeral plan cover-february 2015
3.Find ways to reduce monthly living costs or at least maintain them at what they currently are
4.Invest a quarter of income in a small scale project and ensure that i make double what i invested
5.No impulsive spending:so hard to do,i buy junk at the mall,maybe i should leave with minimum money on me
6.Save a certain amount for a 6 month emergency cash stash
7.Save for a car
8.Save for furtniture
9.Pack lunch this month,eat break-fast at home :)
10.Find a part time job,or create an extra source of  income  to top up cash for buying my car and furniture  :)

They tried to bury you,they did not know you were a seed

Disclaimer ;i am not affiliated to any political party,i have no intentions of being affiliated to either one in the near future,unless the heavens say so

 But

I must say i admire personal traits in a good leader and my writer self does not agree to sleep without paying tribute where its due.

I must say among the many leaders i admire,among them, BDP kwankwetlas like bo Dorcus Makgatho Malesu  not just because she is the Minister of health lol,(ga ke lopele))  but because of her personal traits ,BCP big guns bo Dumelang Shaleshando for having over the years built an opposition strong enough to keep the political playground in check, and so many others i cant mention individually, i must say I admire this leader.

Im sure the ruling party is aware they lost a great member in this man.Not so many leaders host thank you lunches after being elected. Not so many ask for the mere man in the street's opinion before making a speech in response to SONA.Not so many display the humility i have sensed in this man's posts.Not so many speak wisdom filled words like i have read in this man's posts..Not so many

He comes across as approachable.Like he is an ordinary guy in the street.Like morongwa o o lebelo,o o tsebe ntlha go utlwa.I have not met him personally,but from the posts i have read,it seems as if he just doesn't come across as so,but rather he is what he seems to be.

Sometimes all we want form our leaders is to feel that we are being heard.That our opinions matter no matter how insignificant we may be in the social strata.And that our bruised voices  have a father figure,or a mother figure in the form of an MP,a minister,a councillor or whatever position of leadership one is in, to nurse back our voices to a sound so powerful it leaves no option but to be heard,and  when we cant be heard,for  the leader to VOICE  OUR NEEDS in our own voice.

Something New Every Day Challenge

I'm challenging myself to do something new every day for the next 365 days from today! I will update this diary as i go along

19/11/14
I called the Women Affairs office in Francistown to enquire about the women's grant they have available.I was told its only available to non working women.I am making a mental note to write a letter to whoever is in office,to reserve some grants for the working class more especially the working youth who may be interested in entrepreneurship.


20/11/2014
I drank a litre of water today.Trying to create a habit of at-least drinking 2 litres of water per day

21\11\2014
I listened to an audioversion of the book of proverbs,wanted to complete the whole book,but dozed off while listening.Will complete it today

22/11/2014
I attended the BDF concert in Francistown,its a fundraising concert for different charity organisations.It was super awesome,started on a low note but the ending was superb.Glad i was dragged along.

23/11/14
I was on call today,but managed to go see my siblings perform a christmas play at their church.They have been going to Light of the world church ever since i can remember.Glad my call was super quiet and i got to see them act in a play for the very first time.

24/11/2014
Today i just had a quiet night.No commitments.Nothing.Helped me to clear my head.

25/11/2014
Went out with my buddies for a we just got paid lunch at the New Nandos Mall.We have never done that before on pay day.Sometimes you have to enjoy your pay check while you still kicking.Who knows where i would be tomorrow.

26/11/2014
Paid for internet,a day after pay day,im usually slow paying off living expenses,so hi-five to me :)

27/11/2014
On call today,couldnt think of anything i haven't done yet  to do.Maybe its the best time to buy my siblings their gifts.They did well at school,and i promised gifts :) Cant go now because its already late

01/12/14
i took my twin siblings out to Wimpy,we got their end of term you did great gifts.They were happy and so was i :)

05/11/2014
I joined Botswana Student Network today.I met young beautiful women who are passionate about making a difference.It was awesome being among passionate young people :)

Humility

Who i want to be when i grow up

And then one day you meet this person.
This person whose aura radiates pure selflessness.You are drawn closer and closer to their inner being.You want to soak in the steam of their purity.Want to mosturize your inner being with the untainted virtue of their collectedness,of their tamed tongue,of their gentleness.You want to blanket your cold soul with their think tank,take in all their wisdom,let it go viral,
This person gently touches your soul with the presence of their being.No speech.No words.Just altruistic motives.An unadulterated human being.You want to sync in with their vibe.Hashtag yourself to the definition of their being.
Whats their label?

# Humility!

You want to carry it like a Louis Vuitton bag.

Proud.

Like its your most prized possession.Like its your only possession worthy of being shown off.

Humility!

You want to taste this life,of not looking down on anybody.
Taste humility.Lick it before it melts away.Let the memory savour long enough,you can tell your great grandchildren how good a lick of humility can be way after the coldness has evaporated from your soul.
Crunch on its core teaching.Lick humility like a kid eating their first ice cream cone.With great fascination.Enjoying every bite,of humility.

Humility

Priceless!

You gape in awe.In flabbergasted wonder.In total disbelief.Wondering if truly a person this good does really exist.You try to fault find this HUMAN being.

You Search and search,phoraphoring the corners of their soul,peeping into the window of their desires for that one dirting spot.Could a human BEING be this blameless? Be this spotless?

When it hits you,it hits you hard.You shout Euraka! Eureka! ,i got it,I got it,''i have been trying to find a needle in a haystack,''you say.
You accept.Some of God's angels walk the face of the earth and we without eyes think we walk besides humans.

Perhaps this human being is the rasta guy at the end of your street,trying to make ends meet,through honest means.

Perhaps This guy is the driver giving his all,feeding his toddler kids through his lunch hour with his meagre means.

Perhaps This guy is the Mmamochachose lady braaing meat,under the hot summer heat, every single day on her feet,singing to the tune of her own heartbeat.

Perhaps This guy is your maid,who gives you all her aid,without being paid .

Perhaps This guy is the nurse,the doctor,the teacher,the cook,the waiter,the hairdresser,the driver,the mother,the carpenter,the security guard,the pump attendant,the politician,the councillor,the pastor,the sister,the brother,the classmate,the church mate,the beer buddy,the father,the guy, you always pass on your street.

Perhaps the greatness you have been searching for has been right beside you all along.

Perhaps Who i want to be when i grow up; is The greatness walking beside me all along

Depression

When the coffin was laid in her daughter's grave 
she left with the daughter she could not save

i obsessed on how long it took
 for life to return 
to the walking dead 

I had never seen a face so dressed in grief
a massacre of guilt for a life so brief 

I had never seen a woman,so finished with life
 a woman once brave 
holding her ache between her porous fingers
bent down by her soul's weight

i thought her whole being would start to pour,to bleed
it scoured my insides clean
hollowed me for years
to see her  sparkle wither 
her bones give way

When the sun in our sky refuses to shine
and our hope has been melted down to nothingness
when our reflection isn't something we can stand to look at 
and we have clawed the Gods for answers for our dead sons and daughters
woken up with dawn only to crumble with fatigue 
when food ceases to  taste 
and we do not hear the words anymore
'eat,eat,stay alive'
and we do not live the words anymore

when our souls become echoing halls
empty empty 
we learn sorrow is the hardest season
so much is wilting
 tears are falling 
 but no amount of falling 
falling on the ground can get us to fall asleep 

When we only hear  the words
you could have done better 
you could have done better
you could have

we should know we need to let go
God knows we do

We all have our reasons for forgetting to breathe!

and I wonder
 if Jehovah held his breath
the first time his fingers touched your mould
the same way your  mother held her breath
the first time she set her eyes on your soul

We all have our reasons
 for forgetting to breathe!

So when you leave me for dead
i don't wanna cry foul 
I want you to know

I said ,'tell me everything you know!'

She said

''Being you can hurt
being you can hurt sometimes
But its the only thing that you know''


Your heart is never closing
Your warmth is never fading
your soul is ever giving
your eye is ever shining

i been watching you
i been spying from a safe place

i been watching you
sunning someone's cold

you should have seen her face
you should have seen his face

But i want to catch your fever 


I want the scratch in my throat
to forever hold you on a pedestal

being watching you bend a knee
being watching you break your back
 for her
for him


When they ask 
why your spine obeys gravity

tell them you are a seam 
that holds everything together

Being you can mend a heart
Being you can heal

Your heart is never closing
Your warmth is never fading
your soul is ever giving
your eye is ever shining



That night 
when you talked to me
you left a soothing poem in my mouth, 
and you can see some of the lines 
every time  your eyes settle here

That night 
when you talked to me
you left a soothing poem in my mouth
You have been a constant here

Be a constant here
Be my favorite hiding place
Be an open safe
pinky swear
to keep  everything safe

We all have our reasons
 for forgetting to breathe