It hurts to love you

My mum says ,love is a landmine you never go searching for
unless you are ready to die.I know she is right.But we've lost us in the maze
so many times,we've forgot how to put back the puzzle of this broken hearts together
So i have been searching for you
But every-time i think i've found you
i sieve through the good times
i see the trailer of every hurt play like a flash back before us
i hear your words wrap around my heard
hear them pound and pound like a gong
shouting,this is it,we are done
But i'm never ready to hear you say your goodbyes
 even when you say
 the future is a  haze
even when you say no strings attached
I call it a passing phase
Even when you serve a cold platter of your dying heart
We eat  through the silence
through the pain of falling
and we say
this is love
its supposed to hurt
some days are supposed to be good,but most days are bad
but what is love
if we turn our lives into knots that tie us
 bind us,tangle us , till it  hurts to love us
it hurts to love us
the way it hurts to swallow the truth that glares back at us in the dark
there is no shelter on our porch
no welcome mat to your ribcage
There is no place to hold my heart
in your freezer chest
till we bury our hurt in a cemetry so filled with a Forrest of forgiveness
we can only lose ourselves in the peace
and every heart beat is a note singing to us
to heal the hurt that hurts us
and when they ask why we stay
when it hurts to love us
we say
it hurts more not to love us