but now all you have is you, carrying yourself like hearse ,with a dead soul inside

I wrote this based on incidences where couples have lost each other on their wedding day.I was thinking how sad it is to lose someone on the day when your forever was just supposed to be beginning and how hard it must be to accept that the person is really gone.It goes

when his ringing tone rang on and on,unanswered for weeks
you came over to my house, resigned in your walk
i had never seen a young woman age so soon 
when you had barely been soo in your teens
you hurried your way towards a death that kept picking the ones you loved before you
i had never seen a body so stricken with grief
i had never seen a group of cells so eager to commit suicide at one go
with every heavy breath you took i listened to the hate you let in with every shallow breath of oxygen
at times i pondered how many more breaths you would take before the bags under your eyes burst
and let your sorrow sink his flesh deeper and deeper into this heartless earth
i counted the times your lungs deflated with every breath
i counted every breath you had hoped eternity with him would bring
i keep thinking of the both of you even today
you said only if he was breathing and you could ask him why he had to leave so soon
but now all you have is you, carrying yourself like hearse ,with a dead soul inside
you keep telling yourself loyalty sometimes goes beyond the vows of till death do you part
but i hope you hear our plea
that though sadness never really ends
your grief someday will wane
like the waves of an ocean kissing a bank do
though it keeps coming to awaken the memories where your lives met at one time
and though you can never forget
you have to live this life for the both of you
breath in his part of oxygen if that's the only way to get back at a death that keeps picking
what you need to survive