happy for you

your voice is frail like a failing telephone line

you tell me you have given your life over to God

i am happy for you

i hope God takes away the ugly shadows that embrace you like a long lost brother

do you feel rejected

is your pain anything close to the nails Jesus felt on the cross

i wanted to be near you today 

i wanted to watch closely the change of your contour as you sat staring into open space cralcking the code of what life means

i wanted to remind you what it feels like to have someone who needs you

i wanted you to know i know what it feels like to want to be alone all the time

i know what it feels like to want to sleep and never wake up

i know what it feels like 

i know what it feels  like to be a man

to hold it in 

when all i want is to let it out

tears that fall easy dont mean much

ours never fall 

so they never know how much our pain means anyway

atleast not in the presence of those who should see them

we cant be weak

we cant let the world know how much it hurts

what kind of a man breaks down in front of his children

tell me

what kind of a man would he be

do you still hear the voices

stop listening to them

you have to stop to live

please for the life of God,stop!